Sorry for Ranting

Hey guys please don't mind that this is turning into more of a personal blog, I have been thinking about starting a new/different blog because... well frankly I don't get home to see the horses much (or get home much at all... I have been home 2 days sense Early January so over a month and a half now. Im honeesly getting pretty lonely living here on my own. I am not from the area so I don't really have friends here. I go to school and work and come home and do homework and go to bed and thats basically my day every day... even the weekends... My classes are going well and I am enjoying them for the most part.. I enjoy learning about stuff but there are a few classes where I feel like I am back in elementary school where I was always the oddball out (I got picked on really bad as a little girl... called fat, physically bullied on the bus (head slammed againsed the windows and being shoved down) but mostly just being left out of things)... I LOVE my breeding management class but basically know nobody in it... I do know one person but they changed majors and are in the equine program so they fit in with everyone else and don't say much to me anymore... I qualified for National PAS confrence and am going to that and I will be gone for one of my Mare watch days for that class but I can't seem to find anybody to switch a day with... all of them are dead set in their way because they have horse chores a few days over spring break so they won't trade because they want to be at home.. in reality they are lucky they get to go home... I kinda wish my team hadn't placed first qualified for nationals because then I wouldn't have to deal with finding someone... Im probably going to just have to take the -20 points on my Mare watch project.... I just feel sense I am an animal science major and dont have all the other equine classes with everyone that they just don't give two shits... oh well I guess... But anyways I haven't been home in a long time and I am getting home sick... I went home the other day (Friday Night) so I could go with everyone to Kallie's Baptisim on Saturday night and then I came back late saturday night (didn't get home till almost 2 AM) and had mare watch the next day... thankfully Roni came to visit me so I got to spend the day with her (even though I was dead tired I miss her to much to spend the whole day sleeping).... and I went home last night after falling on the stairs outside of my appartment and messed up my hand/wrist that way I didn't have to get up supper early for my doctors appointment (because the roads were really bad)... there was no obvious break thankfully but the radioligist hasn't looked at it yet but I should know for sure by tomorrow. So ya not many days traveling home to see family... and Its about a month and a half until Nick leaves for AT where he will be gone for a month... He leaves on the day of Roni's senior prom and gets back 1 day before her Graduation so that kinda sucks... so I want to get home and spend time with them while I can... I also think my being lonely is probably what contributes to the trouble I have been having sleeping... I got a perscription from the doctor for a sleep aid and it definatly helps me get to sleep... sometimes I think Im lonely but other times I just can't get my mind to go to sleep.... I just lay there thinking about nothing being bored out of my mind and can't shut my mind off enough to go to sleep.... until I decided to go to the doctor I had about a full month of crappy sleeping (getting to bed around 1-2.. and it got worse until I had about a week of barely any sleep when spent the whole week not being able to fall asleep until 4-5 in the morning... (so 3-4 hours of sleep a night) anyways sorry for the rant/pitty party... I don't have anyone to talk to really so this is about my only outlet