In just 3 short months it will have been a year sense I have posted on this blog!
Things have changes so much sense then... So I will kinda hit the big things and then go into more detail on recent things...
Well I guess I graduated high school.... I don't miss high school... I spent my senior prom dealing with my friends trying to break up with eachother and spent so much time trying to be a peacekeeper for them that I didn't have any fun for myself... Graduation was good, I spent most of the summer trying to get more hours at my job (which I didn't really get), got a new tattoo, showed at county fair, went kayaking a couple times with friends. I then started college, im currently studying animal science this year the classes I have taken/am taking are Bio 1 and 2, college algebra, acounting, public speaking, animal science, career seminar, Foods of Animal origen, breeding management, cow calf production, Last semester i took 15 credit hours and this semester I am taking 17, which is a pretty heavy course load. Until november i spent 2-3 hours a day in my vehicle driving, until I moved to the town my school is in at the beginning of November. I now spend my days doing schoolwork and working and not much else...
So honestly I don't know where I am mentally right now... I'm kinda lonely... I don't get much human interaction unless Im in class (where you just take notes all day, you rarely talk to people) or I'm at work (you don't talk to people unless a customer wants something (I don't like the one lady I always get stuck working with either so I can't talk with her)), and I don't get home to see my family very often... (went home for thanksgiving... 2 times over Christmas break, for my grandmas surgery and once after that, Vironica's senior night, and I finally made it to one of my little brothers basketball games... we also found out that Nick will be getting deployed in 2019.. he will miss my little brothers graduation unless he can get his mid tour leave timed right. This year he will be pushing it to make it home for Vironica's graduation... hes scheduled to get back from training a day or two before graduation ceremony. I think everything just runs circles in my mind at night... or I just blank out and don't want to deal with it, but either way it keeps me awake.... (for a few weeks I wasn't able to fall asleep until 3-5 in the morning for more than half the days of the week) I went to the doctors to see if I could get some help and kinda get my body reset into a sleeping pattern. Hopefully it helps. I dislike how some people don't understand the stress of going to college, or financial part of taking out loans vs paying out of pocket and everything else that is involved. Well Im going to chill out before this post gets to personal so I'll leave it at that... I'll try to post more in the future... until next time....
